UPDATE

Hey everyone.  Wow it's been a while since I've blogged and I wanted to update everyone.  Jess proposed to me on June 20th, 2011.  We are going to be married, well in a sense.  I am hoping by the time we have our wedding, gay marriage will be legal,  but that's doubtful.

I don't understand how straight people can be married for 72 hours, or a week or month or whatever and that's "marriage" but gay couples that have been together for 20 years, can't get married because it will ruin the constiution of marriage?  What is that?  But that's the world we live in.  It's true you don't need a piece of paper to tell you that you are committed to your partner, but you get so many things with marriage that are very necessary.  I love my fiance will all my heart and soul, and no one can take that feeling away!!  If you think you can, I dare you to try :)

Peace & Love,
~A

Life, As Seen By Me

Another day another blog.  I haven't written in a while.  This is just going to be an update of what's been going on with my life.  Jess and I are still together and have been for 10 months.  Apparently starting June 1st, 2011 in the state of Illinois Civil Union will be legal.  This is a big move for IL.  I am very excited that the legalization of Civil Union is spreading!!  I never understood why people could get married and end up spliting up within a week and that was okay, but gays couldn't.  We have love in our hearts for people.  The love between two females, or two males means just as much as it does between a man and a woman.  Our love is just as sacred!  I do not understand gay hate!  I never have understood it, even through the religious aspect.  I am lucky to have an accepting family, and Jess is too!!  There are some families that don't and will never accept their children, parents, nieces, nephews, or cousins for being gay.  I will love my children, reguardless.  I don't care if their gay, bi, straight, purple, yellow, or green, it doesn't matter.  I have come to find that it matter's what's in the person's heart.  I try to not judge people on their orientation or where they come from.  I love everyone, equally, as long as they don't do any wrong to me or someone I am close to.  That's all I've got for now.  Spread the love and harmony!

Peace&Love,
~A

Another Day...

Another day, another post...

Well, I sit here a Lesbian... I love my wife Jess very much. She is the best thing that has ever come into my life. She influences me to be my best. Being a lesbian is not an easy way of life. More people are accepting of it now then they used to be, but there is still a lot of hate aginst gays. I think it's immaturity on their part because I believe that you can be whatever you set your mind out to be. I am a college graduate in the medical field. I am a very caring person who loves to work with people. I believe that everyone has their faults. No one has a stress-free life. My grandma told me "If you and Jess break up maybe you can find someone that doesn't have so much stress." Well I told her, "There isn't one perfect person without any stress" which is true. I mean everyone has stress. You can't avoid it. Hell no one is perfect. It's not like Jess takes her anger out on me. Like my ex did. It was horrible what I went through. But that's another day, another blog. Stress can kill people. My wife has a hernia in her stomach because she pushes herself daily. So if you are ever stressed, just think it coul kill you if you don't control it. I am not as stressed as I used to be though. It used to be to the point that I was having seizures. Luckily they have gone away. Life is stressful... but don't let it get the best of you. A few good ways to help relieve stress: Meditate, get a message, breathing excercises... Just to name a few... Well it's 2:15am, and I need to go. Spread the love and harmony.

Peace&Love,
~A

How Far We've Come

Wow, I sit here tonight at 1am, thinking about how "far" we've come as a country accepting Gays, Lesbians, and Bisexuals. Now many people accept them, but there are still some people that just don't want to accept the fact that there very well may be gays in the world. Now, I know that everyone is entited to their own beliefs, believe me I know that very well. But the thing about it is, the people that don't agree with it, can't you just leave the gays, lesbians, and bisexuals alone? We don't go around preaching to you about our lifestyles, we don't ask for trouble. Some people that don't agree with it, take the issue a little too far. Take Matthew Shepard for instance. He was killed because he was gay. Or take the story of a boy named Bobby. His mother didn't approve of him being gay, and said I will not have a gay son. He ended up taking his own life because of all the hate his mother and others put upon him. He had forgotten how precious his life was. And I for one will never forget how precious all of our lives are, no matter the sexual orientation. The sexual orientation doesn't make the person. It's just a small part, of a human being. A human being is made up of some much more than just sexual orientation. And also what matters, is what's in the human's heart. If someone has a good heart, why discrimiate on them just because of their sexual orientation. It doesn't make sense! What if you met someone that had a geniune great heart, and didn't know they were gay, wouldn't you still assoicate with them? Exactly. So please don't judge anyone on their sexual orientation or skin color or anything. We've started growing more tolerant of gays and lesbians... why can't we keep going?

Peace & Love,
~A

Just A Introduction Of Sorts

Welcome to my blog. I'm Amanda, and not your typical 21 year old. You see, somewhere in life I realized that I was a Lesbian. This blog is called what it is called because this blog is going to be about my life, and what I experience and go through as a lesbian. It is hard at first because you see everyone kind of looking down on you that doesn't approve. But you have to stay true to yourself, remember that. I have had people preach to me about what the bible says and all that good stuff. But what matters to me is that a person is happy. If they aren't happy then what is the point of doing what you are doing? To please someone else? Like a parent or someone like that? No. You have to say I know what I want in life and this is exactly what I want, and if you can't accept me for me, than that is your loss. Just because someone is lesbian, gay, or bisexual or what have you, does not make them a bad person. I am not a bad person in the least bit. I am a college graduate. All I've ever wanted in life is to help people. So I went to college for something in the medical field, and I graduated. Now, let me ask you do I sound like a bad person to you? Exactly.

Now for all of you people out there that "gay-bash" let me ask you something? What if one day a loved one, say your son or daughter, came to you and said I am gay. What would you do? Would you turn your back on them or would you be understanding and caring? Now I know of parents that have turned their backs on their children because of this. And I will tell you now, this hurts me to see it. My girlfriend's mother has been doing this to her since she came out about being a lesbian. And it pisses me off because my girlfriend is an amazing person. But seriously, think about it... what if it was a loved one? Say your son or daughter? Niece or nephew? What would you do? When people come out about being gay they sometimes feel alone in the journey, and don't know where to go. Now luckily I had friends and family that don't care and support my relationships as long as I am being treated right. Sometimes gays just don't have the support of family or friends. There is a movie called "Prayers For Bobby" about this young man that comes out to his overly-religious mother about being gay. She doesn't like this fact about him. So she tries with all power to "rid him" of being gay. But in the end he ends up killing himself. And it's a sad sight to see someone do this to themselves. I would never want someone to have to go through that. Being alone when they need someone the most. What if it was you that was coming out? You wouldn't want to be treated like that? 

Gays are no better no worse than other people. What defines a person isn't their sexuality, it's the heart that beats within them. If someone has a great heart, and spirit why would you hate them or down them for being a lesbian, gay, or bisexual? It doesn't make sense to me. We are the same as straight people. We just happen to love people of the same gender. That's all. I have a great spirit, heart, and I am very intellegent, but I am also a lesbian. Now you tell me, if gays are supposed to be stupid why am I a college graduate? It makes me sad to sit there and see someone being downed for their sexuality. I just don't get it. But that's me. That's all for this first blog.

Peace & Love,
-A